Its been 4 years since I stopped pen down all my feelings, I just never felt to write again.
I don't know why so, maybe my feelings were not strong enough for people I've been with or maybe I accepted my fate as a writer.
Well, reasons don't matter as long as I'm aware of the fact that I stopped writing.
So you guys must be thinking what I'm doing here?
Umm, I don't know either, I just felt it is the right time to pen down my untold thoughts.
Thoughts which I'm having from the day I met her, from the day I heard her voice for the first time.
Ok, everyone gets crush in their teenagers at some point in time, which I never had for obvious reasons.
No!! I'm not homosexual, and there were pretty girls in my school but I just never found that something which I found in her.
I don't know what that something is, it is just so many things which I can never bring under one word to describe.
If I have to name that something anyway, I would love to name it Happiness.😇
It was September, I was desperately searching someone who can work with me in my team.
It was a mess because from past 3 months I was not getting a single person who can do it, not to mention I'm strict in terms of taking interviews.
Well, after a lot of job posting I finally received a CV and this time the profile was also moderate.
I called her and she picks up the call, she said Hello and I was shocked for a moment.
The voice from the other side was extremely cute, I was flattered for a second until I asked myself to be normal.
It was the first time that I felt like this, It was the first time I had a crush on someone's voice.
I wanted to speak to her for more time, but I had a responsibility to maintain😁.
Whatever, I called her for an interview next day, I was very excited and that excitement was on my face for sure.
Next day she came for the interview, she was so much pretty😆, for a second I forgot all my questions which I prepared for the interview.
I know I'm sounding like a retard but seriously for the first time in my life, I understood how it feels to get a crush🙃😇.
The interview went well, she was someone more than I've expected.
I would say beauty with brains.
More than that she was super passionate about one thing and that was Digital Marketing.
I was also into Digital Marketing but I was not so passionate, even today😁 I'm not passionate about what I do.
She got hired and we became teammates, it was really fun to work with her, even still nothing changed except my luck.
We became friends, I would say, Good Friends, she has told me a lot about her goals and dreams which I found really interesting and worth enough to work for.
I've worked with a lot of people but I never found someone so much hardworking as her, the best part about her which increases my respect for her is that she travels 4hrs every single day in the bus to come at work.
Which I can never even imagine for myself.
And even after this much travelling, she holds a spectacular smile and a passion for her work.
I don't know if she knows or even cares that she is my life's first crush because her knowing doesn't matter to me as long as I'm busy in building some great memories of mine with her.
If you are reading this, it is not love.
I would never label my feelings as love for you because love is selfish, 🙃😇 and I'm not selfish I want you to fly high in the sky, I want you to make your every single dream come true, when you are happy then I'm the happiest guy in the world, when you are upset I just curse myself for not being able to make you smile.
It doesn't matter, you credit me or not.
I will be just happy in the end because as I said, in the end, I'm not selfish and you are just my life's first crush. 😉