I tied the knot,looked at the fan as i stood there
motionless on the table. I stared the ceiling as if was
trying to tell me something. For the first time in life i
found those five minutes so precious. I would rather
say that those were the best five minutes of my life.
As i was about to remove my existence from the world
which seemed so mean, so useless to me something
stopped me.
I felt like someone held my hand and dragged me
back,back to have a look, to think about all the good
and the bad times of my life.
Suddenly that dark room was filled up with light.
I remembered all those who were there with me
supporting me in my good and bad times. I
remembered all those who at some point of my life
stood against me. The mean world suddenly appeared
so beautiful.
Through the window I saw children playing, fighting
and hugging each other the next moment. They were
full of life.
Suddenly something caught my site, a little girl
walking holding her mother's hand while her Little
skirt was swinging as she took her first steps. I know
this is something we see often but that day it was
different because that sight made me sob, sob like a
kid. There were many similarities in that girl's and my
situation yet we were so different. As she was taking
her first steps, i was approaching death and instead of
mother's hand i had the KNOT OF DEATH.
But then all of a sudden all my sorrows and pain
seemed to disappear. I felt so strong and a new
energy grasped my body. I scolded myself for being so
weak and ordered myself to fight all the problems
rather than running away from it. And then i stepped
down from the table,threw the rope and opened the
windows. that day i hugged myself ,breathed new air
and started a new life.
Those five minutes changed my idea of life.
people say you realise the importance of something
when its gone and that day i found its real meaning as
when i went to hug death , a new life pulled me back
and gave me a second chance.
