Anonymous's Diary

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The tried to bury us... They didn't know we were seeds

15 years old, Female, World of Laughter

Diary Entries (34)

Jun 10th, 2015 1:44 PM

People change. Even I have. A lot. This change is toxic. The wave is hitting away everything that comes my way. Every step I take is taking away someone from me. And my actions are not my own. I don't want to be this way. Losing friends is not easy, and is tougher when you lose them because of your own stupidity which is irreversible, but was evitable. I had accepted them the way they are for four years, why did one small incident spark the fire of angst in me?
Girls, if you are listening, my dear F5, if you people are listening, please forgive me, and give me some time. I'm vanishing for some days, no whatsapp, no facebook, , I have switched off my phone. I am ashamed for not feeling ashamed of what I did. When I will be back, you'll find what you and I both of us lost - ME. And this is the last ordeal that our friendship will face because of the evil me. Because when I come back, I won't let things fall apart again.

Sep 3rd, 2014 1:38 PM

My old diay entries.... haahahahahaha :D
People change soo much over such a short period of time.
I'm talking about MYSELF.

Nov 1st, 2013 7:05 PM

maza aya skool mein aaj :P ..!! f***k my ex.. hw could i forget hw we broke up.. he didn't evn try once to get me bak.. n now m dying for him??

Oct 30th, 2013 2:35 PM

i wz so damn depressed today.. don't know what happened.... was feeling so blue.. ekdum man achha nhi lag raha tha...
m still upset..... i wnt something to make me happy..!! :(

Oct 29th, 2013 1:34 PM

...............??????????????????????????!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! GONE MAD !!!

Oct 27th, 2013 10:13 AM

behh teri.. meko khud nhi samajh aa rha ki ma kr kya rhi hu... abhi parso main apni ek frnd ko mana kiya aur kal doosri frnd ko haan bol di.. we were both on the phn for such a long tym.... baat kr rhe the... achha laga.. after some time, she texted me saying, monday ko, i have a plan... maine poochha wat toh she said ki avi msg pack nhi hai, she'll tll me later, n i cudn't cll her, wais bhi mera bal bohot jaldi khatm ho jata hai, so iss baar nhi... fingers crossed for monday!!

Oct 24th, 2013 5:30 PM

pata nahi yaar.. maine apni frnd ko mana kr diya.. i dnt knw why but i guess sahi kiya, it was my consciece speaking.. mujhe bus laga ki galat hai, so i decided ki nahi jaungi uske paas wapus.. can't i live on myself ?? m nt so dependent.. itna toh nhi mar rhi.. agr in 6 mahino se reh rhi thi toh humesha reh sakti thi.. waise bhi agr chopa hogaya relationship ka toh i don't even know ki mai iss stress ko handle kr paungi ya nhi.. n its 9th this year.. abhi i have 4 cruial years of my school life in front of me.. i can't ruin it for the sake of a relationship waise bhi door se admire krne me zyada maza ata hai :P

Oct 23th, 2013 2:05 PM

apni closest frnd ko bata diya aaj maine abt all that was running on my mind... m feeling soo relieved !! dil halka ho gaya,,!! m happy now.. she said me to go for it.. n ab m pretty sure ki i will atleast try to get him back.. koshish krne me kya harz hai ?? ab if i don't even try i'll live with a regret on my head for life time ki i didn't even try lkn agr kar kr haarungi toh i will not feel bad at ol ki atleast i tried !!


Oct 22th, 2013 8:59 PM

people say kuchh bhi karne se pehle conscience aapko warn zaroor krta hai.. well hw to listen to it ?? meko toh ata hi nhi.. bcz i m gonna do sumthing really dangerous.. it can ruin my reputation..
mai usse shayad se propose krungi.. last tym he did n this time i will.. lkn agr usne mana kr diya toh ?/ waise bhi he is a nerd kind of person.. agr he sayd ki i wanna concentrate on my studies or anything as such.. ?? yaa fir beizzat kr diya usne mujhe toh... if he cqalls me a despo or sumthing ?????
n waise bhi none of my friends want me to go bak to him bcz they don't like him.. not even my sister.. so what shall i do ?? lkn haan i should know best what is best for me.. aur koi kon hota hai meri life decide krne wala.. agr mai uske saath khush hun toh kyu nhi jau uske paas wapus ? if i feel bad leaving him like that.. y shud i not go back "??? lkn yaar baaki log toh jo keh rhe hai wo bhi toh mere liye achha hi keh rhe hai.. aftr ol its my best frnds and my very own sister !! mere ander itni saari awaze ek sath bol rhi hai ki conscience ki warnings sun hi nhi paa rhi hu.. is it even telling me sumthing or not ??
dear conscience..
who ever u r or watever u r.. pehle kabhi mujhse mile toh nhi ho.. ab ek baar mere ghar aa jao n haan mai thodi behri hun.. so thoda zor se bolna jo bhi bolna hai okay ?? waise bhi abhi bohot shor hai toh mai ek toh behri hu hi aur uper se shor ki wajah se tumhe apna voice box fod dena hoga.. shout as loudly as u can :P n kal subah se pehle... warna i'll be in danger !!!

hey bhagwaan.. her problem ko solve krne me meri madat krte ho na aap.. bohot dino se koi problem nhi aayi thi.. ab ek aayi hai.. plz help me :( aur koi nhi kr sakta !!

Oct 21th, 2013 2:12 PM

ohkay.. so i get to knw today... y does he do that ol the time.. wen my frns passed him my notebook the other day, he was smiling instead of getting angry.. WHY ?? i mean, he shud b angry, not smiling..
y does he do such things that force me to believe that he still loves me..!!!
i wish ki wo agle saal iss skool ko chhor kr chale jaye.. atleast ye toh nhi dikhayega na ki wo abhi bhi mujse pyaar krta hai..
its so irritating..
kal raat bhr nhi soyi.. ussi k baare me soch rhi thi.. i guess those days r cuming back..
those days of frustration n irritation.. m gonna get away frm my family once agn :'(
he's bad ! but i still love him :(

Oct 20th, 2013 11:46 AM

meko wapus nepal jane ka man kr rha hai :( :( waha per sab kitna achha tha.. i spent all my first eleven years of my life ther.e. n wo jagah.. that was really pure. mayb i was kid bak then n didn't realise abt the tough life there but wateva it was... i will never be so happy, so carefree again.. my childhood in nepal.. i miss it :'(

Oct 18th, 2013 6:40 PM

behh !! y dnt they understand.. avi bhi uske naam se pareshaan krti hai.. aaj toh had ho gyi...
i just whispered sumthing in one of my frnd's ears, n other one asked what is it.. she thought we were toking sumthing abt her.. i just told her no i won't tell just to irritate her.. n she got irritated.. she took out my thesaurus frm my school bag n she vry well knows hw important it is for me.. it is my life and she threatened me to give it to my ex.. this is the most embarrassing thing n especially wen hez with his frnz n i didn't like it while we were in a relationship as well... so this girl, she tried to give it to him but i sumhw rescued it.. but meanwhile some other girl took my rough note book and passed it to him.. n yup! the class mates supported her :( he just passed it back to me agn.. n ol of them were laughing... i gt really ngry n wen i get angry i drink lots of water, n i spilt it today on myself. :( y do they do it all the time..!!!!!
waise v usske b'day wale din jab usne meko chocolate diya ussi din se mera dimaag kharab ho rakha hai !! aur ye log uska naam baar baar le kr aur tang krti rehti hai..
wt do they like so much in his fav song that they keep singing it all the time..
do they love his code name so much that they HAVE to shout it accross the class
i knw i still like him but i don't like being teased by his name nymore !! its irritating u knw.. at the first place i took the initiative for break up n now i want him back, n m regretting wht i did so it is obvious that i'll hav so much of frustration boiling inside me..!! n i just cnt tell them abt it.. i don't want to.. maybe some day or the other i might find someone else.. i will not like to change my words just after sometime.. or maybe like its happening since the last six months of break up my liking goes away once again n when i tell them this time they think me as a big fool... but this irritation is to big for me to handle....

Oct 17th, 2013 1:53 PM

woohhoo !1 maza aa gaya.,. itte dino k baad school gyi.. :D
had soo much of fun 2day ;) n those gals my fnzz they just wont stop singing pani da rang... they sumhw knew it was HIS fav song :(
koi nhi.. bhaad me jaye wo.. ab i won't let ny1 make me upset.. us upsetness per dhyaan hi nhi dena hai mujhe..

Oct 16th, 2013 8:25 PM

yeaa !! kal se fir school.. wahi masti wapus se.. missed ol that fun in the school, however these holidays were not thaaaaat bad.. but nt thaaaat good as well..

Oct 15th, 2013 12:14 AM

raining... the weather has turned bitterly cold.. i like it ;)
missing him like anything in this weather..
i remember one of those days while we were on the phn.. it was raining that day and he said he was missing me n wanted to come bak to meet me.. he was out for an inter state quiz.. :(
come back..!!

Oct 12th, 2013 2:43 PM

m missing skool.. the holz aren't that fun.. as i supposed them to be.. but they atleast are better than the summer vacations when i longed to see the outside world.. those days.. i learned humans really need to interact to live.. we indeed are social beings..

Oct 11th, 2013 1:19 PM

dude!! u will suffer.. u made my sis cry n nw see what both of us cn do..!! _ :(

Oct 10th, 2013 3:03 PM

last day in the school...
kal se chhuttii !!!
ab toh ghar per mast marungi :P
but yeah..!! m gonna miss skool :(

Oct 09th, 2013 2:44 PM

boring day today.. had to sit alone..
frnds in odd numbers is a problem :P
someone has to sit alone..

Oct 08th, 2013 7:08 PM

nice day...

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