Dear Bastian 's Diary

Dear Bastian 's Diary

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Oh Captain! My Captain

23 years old, Female, Thoughts

Diary Entries (129)

Jun 27th, 2021 7:04 PM

Dear Bastian,
Mini project 2 is on the head and I have no fucking idea how am I going to finish it without our faculty guide helping us even for once.

May 16th, 2021 05:52 AM

But are we all lost stars...trying to light up the dark

Feb 21th, 2020 11:32 AM

Dear Bastian,
I sit down here to write about my feelings but I realize I've none left enough to write about them.

Mar 24th, 2019 6:26 PM

Dear Bastian,
Every sign that I should stay away from Zee are livid and I'm loving it.

Mar 12th, 2019 7:41 PM

Dear Bastian,
would you slight bit even mind ,if I handed over the diary to Zee? I so hope you don't.
I dont want to even think .I am thinking about deleting my diary here .

Jan 10th, 2019 11:28 PM

Dear Bastian,
Talking to Ditto 😍😍😍. I love him for all stupid reasons and you know it. Talking to him about what I did and why I did so.

Jan 10th, 2019 7:49 PM

Also it's their. Google keyboard is a pain in ass.

Jan 10th, 2019 7:44 PM

Dear Bastian,
Life is good. I'm so happy for 2018 to happen. It made my visions clear and not to forget those long ass emotionally numb months I'd. They kind of shaped me into who I'm.
2018 was the year I let go of many people in spite of me realising my mistake and wanting them to a part of my life. Turns on it was good decision. I loved deleting thier contacts and thier Hollow personalities from my Life.
Another year of self reliance, another year of me hopelessly being in love with someone and have chutiya so called friends who can't handle minimal stuffs.
Inked wrists Page 😂 Joke. Too many cooks spoil the broth. I loved how Ayushi was trying to hold it.
I don't even talk about it, because I've stopped writing , I don't know when am I going to get back to it but as of 2 years nothing. No regrets of any sort bye bye self righteous people. Oh expect one regret, Karl , you're a motherfucker pig.


Dec 19th, 2018 01:30 AM

Shoutout to my important peeps
Chintu and Shraddha

Dec 19th, 2018 01:29 AM

Hi Bastian,
I've been so busy recently, I can't tell you. Not that anyone's asking me.
Do people care? No, the harsh slap of truth. They just wear this facades everytime . I really appreciate facades, they're so necessary for survival. I don't mind now - anyone portraying me they're something that they're not. It's fine Bastian, people do what they need to. Instead of cribbing about how things , person changes I try to see what made them do that.
Normal life is good life. I don't want anyone existing or coming in my life ( Not anymore) .
Ayush's surgery was successful.
I've become healthy Bastian, can you effing believe it?😂

Dec 06th, 2018 10:50 PM

Dear Bastian ,
i wanted to write to you since so long but couldn't gather courage to do so
How was 2018? (In my head I was like 2017 okay )
It was one of the major defining years of my life! My relationship with Zee ,on an honest note I don't know even what the fuck was my relationship with him ,ended. I saw us struggling in the space that was there between us. Secondly I've learnt that I'm better off without certain people in my damn fucking life.
I've lost myself Bastian.

Jul 31th, 2018 09:48 AM

Dear Bastian,
Never hold on to people. Learn that

Jul 23th, 2018 01:01 AM

Dear Bastian,
You know what, I have tried to hold on to some people but at the end of tunnel they've proved it to be totally unworthy. Enough of me saying sorry again and again and wanting them back in my life when they clearly have grown bonds over last years so well.

Mar 2nd, 2018 7:18 PM

Dear Bastian,
I never want to return to my father again. It's a vivacious chain.He keeps hunting me down whenever I try to stand up. He kills a part of me with eah words he speaks to me....
So all the tears were a show from his side.
He never wanted me to come back to him and maa. Sometimes I wonder,what kind of fate have you bestowed for my mother..
my HOLI was a sad affair again..

Nov 24th, 2016 00:48 AM

Dear Bastian,
As of now, I've loads of shit at my plate to deal with.
1- Badi ma needs is back at home, but the main problem still lingers cause her blood pressure and sugar are high without it being low, doctors aren't going to perform any sort of operation. God! Her heart attack shook us like fuck.
2- I'm being emotional in loving someone who just don't hold the power to love ever again.
3- Lord! I hate relatives and gatherings. All they do is notching and bitching. There is marriage at place so can't ignore them. Come stay at out home, don't give a fuck about my ailing mother and demand five star level food.
Guess what kiss my sparkling ass. I don't know about maa but I'm not to tolerate anything against me or my maa.
4- Least I require from people is emotional attachments.
5- Let me sleep.


Nov 13th, 2016 10:18 AM

Dear Bastian,

I'm an irrevocable fool for letting the other people have me.
Have my feelings, my thoughts to be ridiculed upon.
Each time, I feel I'll be fine after letting the agony and other things out, I feel more miserable.
It's like they stamp over my head through their slaughtering words.

Sep 23th, 2016 7:35 PM

Dear Bruce,
I'm not fine and hope the opposite for you.
I've broken my left foot yes you read it right and my haemoglobin status is 6.7, whereas it should be 14—16. -. -
I've got to seriously admit that I over pushed myself for last two months. I was hardly taking 4-5 hours sleep in total and idk what not.
I was labouring so hard, focusing on finding a way out that I overlooked my health and biggest chutzpah amongst all this is I still stand no where near Tuhina like I wanted to be.
Tuhina Ayushi in our batch have this superiority complex and I wanted to show them that, a girl who wears baggy clothes remains out of style mostly is of your level too.
Biggest regret- Chintu is in town for his birthday and I can't even stand. Amazing isn't it?
Rest we're products of our own environment. Courtesy of my father, my depression has resurfaced. Yes I'm choosing to address this issue rather than talking in hushed tones behind the door. will write 📝 later on.

Leg is paining.

Sep 2nd, 2016 5:48 PM

Dear Bruce,.
Kinda dissappointed with the way everyone is busy!

Aug 05th, 2016 7:12 PM

Dear Bruce,

Abhishek sir is one hell of a person. I mean, I get it! You like Aradhana, it's totally okay no harm but stalling other students cause your Aradhana hasn't yet completed RC is one fuck of a behavior. I and Radhika had finished 3 RCs while the students who've Abhishek 's support or rather are his top students were struggling with completion of one.

He could have simply checked our answers and let go of us but nah! He made us wait up till 1 PM.
Leave him.

You know I'm kind of feeling guil, Ayu has vested so much trust in me and I am unable to edit a chapter since so many days.
I'm so caught up. And if I'm not caught up, I'm tired.
I'm tired of getting tired so easily.
My body isn't coping up with various things around.
Lel I care least.
Anil sir has told us not to waste a single second.

Things are slow with Chintu. Yes we've patched up as clichéd as it may sound, but we simply couldn't let go of the years we gave to each other.
Will be writing regularly now. ☺

Oh and yes Pradeep Sir parked my scooty today. He's so ultra cute I tell you.
Gotta go don't need my head in gutter again!

Jul 07th, 2016 10:33 AM

Dear Bruce,
You know what I am pissed ,I'm an emotional fool. Yes I'm, an utter fool who falls prey to the emotional drama family pulls up in front of me.
I was much better than Riya, I'd potentials and yet can you see where I stand? Comparatively nowhere. Riya just got back from training at Delhi. She'll be joining hotel for work next year at Delhi(Hayaat,I guess).
Jatin jiju asked me last night at party ki Neha Saali ji,kya kar rahi ho kaha ho kyu ho? And I didn't had answers to any.

Mai aaj bhi wahi pe khadi hui jaha 3 saal pehle thi..

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