24 years old, Female, India
Dec 31st 2018.
This year has been full of ups and downs and I am thankful to have seen so much life. I sure had too many experiences and these experiences are what I live for. I broke up with shashank because things did not work out at home. It was quite a difficult phase to let go. I then began chasing my dreams, worked real hard, got good rating and kudos! I will be getting promoted from tomorrow. :D
In the meanwhile, I found shreyansh and he is the apple of my eye. It was initially very difficult for me to believe that someone like him really exists but touch wood he is for real and I am not dreaming.
I haven't travelled much this year and that's something I would do more often in the coming year hopefully.
But yeah coorg trip was one of the most memorable ones that I have been on.
So good bye 2018!
The next 8 hours are going to be the longest.
And I got late to office because I got lost in his thoughts in the bathroom :p
Guard yourself for few more days girl.
Dene wala jab bhi deta, deta chappar phaad ke.
You are a blessing, everything feels so beautiful.
I had to go to the canteen for breakfast. I don't know what is wrong with me, I went to the washroom instead, washed my hands and came back to desk.
Like really? Absent minded to this level?
Morning conversations with him keep running in my mind :D
It is difficult to believe that someone who is so perfect for me exists.
Am I dreaming or is it for real?
And in that moment when you said you should find another guy, I knew I should never let you go.
There are battles that you fight against yourself and the moment you win, nothing external can defeat you ever.
Ah! I am counting minutes. Ghar jaana Hai mujhko.
Do you have conversations with me in your head like I am talking to you right now?
I am really looking forward for the weekend. 😳😳😳😳
Hopefully! Things will work fine.
I had been on a dinner party yesterday. It was so much fun. Today is a customer holiday so I had taken work from home and again evening had been to shekar's flat, dinner party :D. I drank half bottle of Tropicana guava with eight other people drinking alcohol.
We remembered every scene that happened last year on this day. Damn! That was a night to remember.
Shekar dropped me back home. It was so sweet of him to have left his own party to make sure I reached back safely.
Tomorrow and day after at dada's place. Day and night out with family 😍
I am going home again next weekend. Just for the weekend though.
I realize the perks of being an extrovert includes too many parties.
I like this band local train. I am listening to them on repeat.
Chalo abi Jojo time.
Dada knows me better than me.
Home is love. It sure is the happiest place on Earth. Ah! Such unconditional love.
I want to stay with my parents 😟
6 years I think is enough staying away from them; I learnt to be independent and I do everything on my own. Now I want to get back. I crave for such togetherness.
Ah this is the hardest goodbye. I want to get down from the train and run back to them.
What is life with only money and ambitions and goals and running behind them? After all family first!
And in these 40 days I have had such strong bond with mom. She has become my best friend.
Chalo koi nahi, Bangalore wapas tho jaana he Hai ab. This is how it is going to be.
Inni jaldi ek mahina nikal gaya.
I woke up at 7 am this morning. I had forgotten to close the window near the headboard and I was feeling cold. After a lot of struggle I budged, and to my surprise I could hear some voices from my neighbor's kitchen. I quickly recognized it was Ajay's voice. After paying attention I could hear him blurting out vulgar kannada words at his wife for not preparing breakfast in time. There was no voice in response. His wife was mum and after a minute he probably slapped her and the glass in her hand feel down. I wasn't intending to eavesdrop the conversation but since I knew something was wrong I had to understand the cause.
I was perturbed by the incident. When my parents returned from their morning walk I asked Mom why his wife never complains to the police. What Ajay was doing is a crime which is punishable under the Protection of Women from Domestic Violence Act 2005 and I was disturbed because the lady was suffering in the name of not letting the family reputation down.
I wanted to do something for her. After a while I understood I could be of no help because she is not willing to stand for herself and no outsider can help. She would deny the truth and nothing would change.
I can't resist such heinous crime in my surrounding and I can't decide an action because the family reputation would win anyway. I only wish women knew how they deserve to be treated and stood up for themselves to show what could happen otherwise.
Lesson I learnt today - Don't take anything for granted. Someone is praying for what you already have.
If it is meant to be, it will be :)
The first time I saw you, I did not see you. I failed to notice you for sometime because you remained in the shell; dormant is what you seemed. You made no attempts to interact, and remained glued to the laptop and I was too busy having fun and sleeping in the Network operating center.
One fine morning when I entered the room, there were not many people and you were seated. Now like I smile at everyone around, I smiled and said hi to you too. That's when I actually noticed you and I remembered you as the guy with nice eyes. I wanted to know more of you because you had a look of "guys with stories". Soon enough I started observing and found that you were beyond just a guy with nice eyes. Your simplicity and good behavior caught my attention.
Time sure did not want the same and so you shifted to the other ODC.
I never made further attempts and just let it be until we accidentally started talking during the team outing. I was running away from a colleague who kept calling. He wanted me to be with him but he wasn't in his senses and I wanted to keep distance.
I had a good time talking to you. I was constantly observing everything around. On our way back to office, you were sitting next to me we spoke a lot. I could connect with you instantly and we realized we are similar in a lot of ways. We spoke often and I have enormous respect for you. I sure have too many things to learn from you, particularly the way you handle situations.
You undoubtedly have handled me so many times when I thought I could break and I feel lucky to have you in life.
I admit I have felt differently for you at times. I haven't told you this, but there have been days when the first thing I did after reaching canteen was to look for you. I was crushing on you and nobody knew about it except dada. I hadn't confessed earlier because I thought you would tell about it to your friends and I would dislike my name being associated with anyone at that juncture. Even when I confessed I told you a lie about the time when I had a crush on you (it wasn't when we were in NOC). I apologise for that but I couldn't be too upfront about how I feel and that's why I lied, though unintentionally.
I understand it is a short period of time that we have known each other. But we sure have come a long way from the first time we smiled at each other, became acquaintces to becoming good friends. You still will be the potential best friend that I have :D
Now that even you are leaving Bangalore and the company, I am gonna miss you a lot. It was so easy to be me with you and I do have an emotional connect with you.
Wish you all the best :)
May you farewell.
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