Kudos to the breaking dawn!!
23 years old, Female, Believer-Land
Tanhaiyon ke sukoon me
aaj gumshuda mere alfaz hain.
Tanhaiyon ke kisso me
zamane ko aksar shayrana hote zaroor suna tha.
par Tanhaiyon ke sukoon me
alfazo se dur jaate khud ko paaya hai.
Dil ko sukoon tanhaiyan deti hai
Inn alfazon ko Na ruhani mausam, Na lehro ki dhun lubhati hai..
Na jaane kyu sukoon me, aaj gumshuda mere alfaz hain.
Okay so idk how bad this is! But freeflow of thoughts.
Was I busy? I was thoroughly enjoying my weekend.
Angie was here and I am really grateful for the past year and past three days. I'm glad to get this much-needed break and work-detox.
It was a girl-gang shopping, eating, doing crazy stuff, roaming, pictures and then gossiping best-best part :P
Sissy and Jerry are what soul sisters.
They are the same type of foodies, prawn premi, shopaholics.
Not to forget the day before yesterday, all three of us were people in the marketing field! so the takeaway is we found a guy, a shopkeeper our case study for marketing and sales. :P :P
Memorable moment! Bohot hai let it be in memories now :)
I am happy, I am grateful for this platform I have really found such amazing people and having them as my friends, is good.
I can speak my heart out, I can be myself. People say Internet Friends are fake ye vo, and look at me had it not been the internet My closed circle would have been so bloody concise.
I really wish to meet Nihu now, I found a good store and a perfect gift for her, If she comes her will take her there :D
Chalo see you! Good night Moonji, Thank you and I love you :D
Moonji, I read a meme yesterday that said - "Don't be ashamed of yourself, that is your parents' job."
You know what felt awesome? Knowing that this meme is not my reality. My family is proud of me and I am glad to be their pride.
Today is Masi's birthday.
Happy Birthday to the lady who has shaped my personality chiseled my character and given me wisdom and knowledge that can be used to survive in this world. She is a pillar without whose support I would not have been at this place and be the person I'm today! She has brought the best out of me! I am grateful to have her by my side.
Hey, Yesterday was friendship day!
How did I spend it?
Shopping, Munching with my forever partner in crime sissy and then shopping again arranging room! My day was very well spent :D
I wanted to write to you yesterday night but then I talked to Dharmika and oh moonji spilling out gossips to her is the best part :D
Anyway, I have to practice but I'm so fucking lazy and pathetic!
But I'll practice still, Acha aapse baad me baat karti, kal I did not wished anybody for formality jo kia danke ki chot pe mann se kia.
Friendship is a two-way road - You cannot just expect me to walk on one side. So I'm happy with my garden of less but brightly blooming flowers :D
Moonji, when I was a kid I stayed for a year or two in one house that had a garden of white lilies and the fragrance and appearance were beautiful! I want to have that garden again.
There is a big difference between hope and faith.
Having faith is much better than having hope.
Hope is skeptical, the outcome with context to hope is negative. We have reached a negative conclusion already and then we dump the dust of hope wishing the negative doesn't happen.
where as faith is different, faith is certainity for good outcomes. We never keep faith for bad consequences.
Then Moonji school me every time I forget. I have to be faithful everytime not hopeful.
Happy Friendship's Day Moonji, I love you.
Mars is visible from naked eyes today. But guess what! Any great sky day, the weather will be cloudy for sure ofc it is B'lore.
Nah! I am not annoyed anymore. I am okay. I like the cool breezy weather even now.
Moonji I was having a casual discussion with a friend few days back, which basically brought up statement or question - He said yeah, It is difficult to believe a girl in today's world with no past relationships or interests. Then he asked never had crushes, or during college days somebody in class. I said No, and Hello I'm the alien of millenial era. He laughed of but yes I did explain that it was no joke, and I really had no one.
I mean, people judge you. It is weird but doesn't matter. I know I'm not upfront in laying my soul bare but actually sach me kabi koi takraya nai and lagta hai ab anjaana tera mera once and forever, always wala episode hoga jab bhi hoga.
Ab tanhaiyon me sukoon sa aata hai. My friend thought I interact less toh kaha se feelings aayengi and I thought agar feelings aani hoti toh bhyii baaten ho hi jaati engaging.
Interacting less he said because I have started talking less to friends. I dont know bas kaha na tanhaiyon me sukoon sa aata hai aajkal. Mere close logon ki dunia hai bas unse ghire rehna acha lagta hai.
Moonji! Duniya kitni judgemental haina par khair kee karna ab hai toh hai. Hum khush hai toh fir duniya se kya karna. Bas muskura do unki baaton pe dilon ko chain aajayega.
I am on terrace and listening to songs and it feels great. This solitude feels amazingly good and right now I'm content with all aspects of my life except for few jo waqt ke saath thik ho hi jayengi. I'm so thankful to this universe for my life whatever it is right now. Thank you!
And now mann bhar gaya aapse kal batiyati hu moonji! See you and Ha I love you :)
How are you?
The day was good! I have started feeling more confident while doing many things at work. I am actually satisfied with my performance now and I'm setting small goals to get better at every step.
You know what is best? I feel my boss is satisfied with my current performance as well. Tomorrow is salary day and I'm grateful for the raise and I'm happy, I am no longer surprised by the number. I had used the law of attraction for that number only.
Anyway, I was working till now! the busy day, I will chat later :D
Sleepy! Good night sweet dreams take care :)
Hey, A good Saturday and a peaceful Sunday makes it a great weekend Moonji :)
And good news I may be meeting jerry soon, I hope someday Tom n jerry se saath me milu :D
Good night sweet dreams take care :D
Moonji, What do you want me to say?
I feel helpless and I'm not proud of being partial.
I hate to do it Moonji! He is my brother, my own blood but I have nothing to do other than just sitting back and watching him destroy one good opportunity he has for making his career.
Nobody ever gets this dilemma, Every time I say no to his demands which is very necessary. I feel I am abandoning him, He is lost and I cannot help him find direction.
I am so frustrated and helpless that I complain about him to everyone which is certainly not the best possible thing I'm doing but I cannot find a way to mend this! And Tell me how do I find it, every time in life things cannot be one way right there has to be two-way road especially in a relationship. Moonji my efforts are waste without his efforts.
And I'm a hypocrite person. Why are we humans so mean?
I mean you cannot help it, you have to live in a world with the society that does suck and you have to keep a line between everything and everyone.
I don't wanna write about it, nothing changes it will remain the same.
People have issues of relationships their love life, and they have for hundred other things. Look at me always tangled in the journey of relationships! and not the one everyone find solace in.
Honestly! I wanna scream out and be real self and I wanna say it irrespective of losing friends! To hell with them and I don't wanna babysit! I'm done doing it, being a saviour for everyone when my soul is stuck in the marsh.
Let's just stop talking about it! I miss being your old moonchild moonji! why do we change?
You looked pretty today and tomorrow you'll hide to scare people of bad omens and ill fate. It is Lunar eclipse anyway just want silence around.
Good Night, sweet dreams, I love you :)
How was the day? - Good day! Ending with some thoughts or I'd say questions.
What am I supposed to do now?
I have stretched something which wasn't meant to be to a limit where maybe going with the flow is the best possible option but I'm confused now, I don't know what is the flow. I feel like a fool for having started it on first place, so naive and now look at these crossroads.
Moonji, guide me, please! And because more I will try to make it right more I will be unfair for the one who has done justice!! Anyway what has to be done, should be done! One day at a time.
For now, posting 1 today.
I'll talk to you later Moonji!
And the previous entry about mirror, I'll be publishing on wp.
Bye, Good night sweet dreams :D
Okay! Sometimes I give really good gyan yeh raha vo -
Mirror was meant to show reflection of the skin we wear,
But all it ever presented was the mask we wear,
Mirror was supposed to be your honest friend,
Yet like a bitch with knife it hurt you in your back,
Every time you stood in front he lied right away.
If you turn away from the reflection, In that very moment look deep in the depths of yourself.
You'll find a mirror inside, The mirror that shows you reflection of not only who you are but also the person you were supposed to be. This mirror is called choices.
Choices decide the person we are, If we stand on crossroads and decide something it is just not a decision.
Even when we make the simplest or most complicated choices it has always defined us as person.
Choices can make people see beneath the skin we wear or masks we put.
Choices are the mirror that can reveal our true faces when we surround ourselves by mirage of lies.
In every second we face this reflection, Next time if you choose to do something, Remember even if you lie to mirror that shows your reflection you can never deny the reflection of your choices.
Take as much time as you please, Run away if you don't find sense but choices are the mirror that will always stick around like your shadow.
So which mirror do you choose??
acha gyan captured!
We’re all susceptible to it. The dread and anxiety of not knowing what’s coming. It’s pointless in the end. Because all the worrying, and all the making of plans for things that could, or could not happen, it only makes things worse. So walk your dog. Or take a nap. Just, whatever you do, stop worrying. Because the only cure for paranoia, is to be here. Just as you are.
Our PM has a segment chai pe charcha!
I wanna name this diary writing segment as - Coffee aur Khayal :P
Lol, it is funny and maybe senseless but doesn't matter konsa hume standup comedian banna hai!
Yes I am having and coffee and writing to you, this is my most relaxed part of the day, if I'm writing diary while having coffee it concludes I'm at peace no hustle is going on! Work is balanced too :) Plus if it is happening in morning then it marks the good day.
Moonji, only time missing having flat is when I wake up in the morning so early and I cannot open windows or sit with my laptop on balcony and work. PG feels too Chota, your table, sofa everything is just one bed.
But still, I like it here. It is ideal for now because after having so tough working hours to pull, who will come back home cleanup or cook.
Well sorry for the disturbance, I was answering a mail.
Moonji, I had a very weird dream today it was Meredith grey with the whole bunch of new characters and she was giving voiceovers about new beginning and love. I really don't remember now what was it, but those were really good thoughts.
2 chapters and I'm still not liking it, I have kept it in the cupboard now.
If the start is not good it ticks me off, I have kept my secret near my bedside, I always have a book at my bedside even though I don't read daily, it reminds me I should.
It is working saturday and I don't feel like getting ready! Weekend vibes pulling me back :P
Moonji guess what? I forgot to tell I have been working to bring in 1 client for 1 month and he is an enterprise customer, so happy yesterday fixed all his issue. It will be my first conversion, this is special because of his issues I learnt few important things on my own and that boosted my morale. I'll celebrate when he actually converts.
Moonji! I watched the no-confidence motion drama and It was so long that I couldn't stay awake, so slept around 11. The reason I could not write to you was the drama was really interesting :D
Chalo gtg I'll talk to you later.
I love you Happy Saturday and Good night for you and Good day for me.
Am I using the word 'Well' too often?
I guess yes! I don't wanna use it beacause the person who uses it cannot impact anything on me.
so be more mindful girl😁😁
How was yesterday - hectic and good. I couldnt talk to you because was listening or counselling a friend in PG.
If not engineer, I would have been journalist/writer and other than that I believe I could be good counsellor too🙊 lol apne muh miya mithhu ni ban rahi. Acha chalo baad me baat karenge Moonji! Oh yes I have 1 very important thing to talk - about priveleges and not doing struggle will talk about it later though 🤗🤗
I love you inna sara! Have a good day moonji! I've dance class today. See ya!
I started reading book I ordered for now not interesting maybe later I'll like. I am going to perform bharatnatyam on stage by end of december!
Well, so happy because started in April and feels good to be ready to perform on stage.
Moonji! Well, what is the take away from today?
I did not give much thought to all of it but yes I realized -
"You have to do something for yourself in the busy schedule if you do not pick one activity and do it with dedication, you will burn out."
Burn out - is the phrase of the month by my boss! I like the phrase though :P He keeps saying take breaks, don't get burned out but yet loads of work never gives many breaks :P
Anyway! Good night sweet dreams take care, love you :D
How was the day? Good Day! Good Day! Good Day!
Not sooo good but bas 3 baar bolne ka mann kar gaya :P
Anyway aaj I ordered a preeti shenoy book :D Excited, this will be my first book from her.
Okay so aaj ka gyan! I mean read a really good quote today on arunoday singh's insta profile -
"Life is about
Trying to keep
The pebble of your faith,
From being ground to dust,
By the mountain of your doubt."
I need this in this phase so I'll remember it :)
Good night, sweet dreams take care and I love you :D
Please aaj india ko match jitwa ke series jitwa do bhagwan, ttyl time to see the match.
Such a good day it was, I was in love with the vibe of today :)
Monday had no blues and I read something really good! Huge would have surely rhymed but khair never mind :P
"At some point, you have to make a decision. Boundaries don’t keep other people out, they fence you in. Life is messy. That’s how we’re made. So you can waste your life drawing lines…or you can live your life crossing them.
But there are some lines…that are way too dangerous to cross. Here’s what I know: If you’re willing to take the chance, the view from the other side…is spectacular." - Grey's anatomy Season 1 by Meredith Grey.
I wrote diary at the end of the day, Moonji I couldn't have been happier :D and yes now I'm singing happier by ed sheeran lol okay now done! Kal subah milte hai fir, good wali night sweet wale dreams and Aaj toh aap and venus coffee pe mile the :P
The crescent you is also beautiful, I love all of you anyway and now I'm singing that too! okay shhh! Bye Good night I loveee you innnnaa sara :)
Goood wali morning :D
Writing to you without coffee :P
What's up these days? Marriage is only up like everybody is either coming into 'the' relationship (which means the kind of relationship that ends in marriage) or getting married. I'm like stop it please I'm just 23 let me feel that but everyone is growing too fast and getting married :P
Yesterday one of my friends not exactly friend my neighbor said even I got engaged, we said congratulations!! And then when we said everyone is getting married it feels so weird so she said the universe is sending signs for you also, I laughed out loud I said there should be some potential guy know only signs are not enough for getting married, Also I said I know my family won't get us married right now no matter even bramha ji says so, it will happen only at or after 25 and thank god for that :P
Ahh I don't like breaks while writing to you! never mind brb.
Anyway, Ye ho li Mazak ki baat! Mera Sunday Kaisa beeta - khub chan hota! Ekdum peaceful I drained all the tiredness and refreshed myself watched a good movie, watched the entire match after so long time, read a good book talked to friends, spent me-time. I loved it totally.
I want to order a book, I was taking suggestions but I feel like sometimes I really should be making that independent choice yes even though it is just a book :D
Moonji! I'm not having Monday blues which means weekend well spent!
Today venus will be close to you! basically, you have a date with venus.
Lol I'm crazy :D
I am not getting any more articles for content writing, well I'm happy about it, that was a fuck-ol site and she got annoyed by my last article.
I don't even care, I'll write only what makes sense :D
Acha it is 7:50 already, I wanna make coffee and then I gotta take bath and practice dance so see ya Moonji :)
I'm grateful for this day and to all the things that will happen today :D
Saturday - relaxing! Much needed rest :)
A peaceful sleep, movie and Friends episode then popcorn with cricket match and no work going on! Hoping India wins and day remains good :D
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