Learning to spend time with myself.. Wish to take a solo trip to a palce far away :)
26 years old, Female, Gurgaon
Just Read someone's diary.. Felt so like me when i joined college.. An introvert who used to try things she did not like just for sake of socializing.. Well 10 years and i am all over that.. I have not exactly become what i dreamt of.. But i love what i have become in last few years..
Have realized that i ll always be an introvert at heart but can learn and deceive the world.. Way to go.. keep in mine "Interests and hobbies, right investment of time and knowledge can help you improving self image to a great extent"
And no matter what some people come in your life who understands you for who you are.. No matter introvert or extrovert..
Also, Read an article on TOI about circumcision practices in Kenya.. shook my heart.. Feel like talking to someone to get normal..
Today, while having lunch at haldirams cyberhub, on seeing huge crowd. Discussion started on how every place is so full of crowd. Be it Shopping malls, food courts, movie halls or local markets. A thought came that the only non crowded place left is "Home" :-) . And more and more i mature and see the world. More peace i find at my Abode. Human beings have filled their lives with so much noise and crowd and they have forget how to celebrate silence. Even how to stay silent. But in last few months.. i have found out that "Me" time is an awesome thing.. The Things i love doing in Me time
1. Khayali Pulao
2. Appreciating the wonderful people and their amazing talent.
4. Reading book reviews
5. Any favourite movie in forward mode
6. Ofocurse, studying.
Etc , etc..
So many things to do, so little time :)
Writing aftr so many days.. Lack of motivation :P .. now i hav some.. Started plating badminton 4 days back n it feels awesome.. game hav improved a lot.. Thanks to Protein guru :D after i learn badminton well.. next in line is dance.. not DJ type vala individual vala.. Saru ki shadi k liye :D reading a story book by Ravinder Singh these days.. short stories.. but all the love stories are just so sad.. perfects ones too.. wenever i read sad things before going to sleep.. i get scary dreams.. like 2 days back i had that serail killer dream.. and havnt seen last 2 episodes of HIMYM.. downloading.. kal dekhungi.. n u kno wat d worst feeling is.. wen u want to cry and still not able to n thn u try convincing urself that u r heartles.. n at some part u know u r not.. i think i got this habit frm mumma.. this super ve attitude n not crying habit.. at the end of the day.. watever happens watever i feel.. i jus love it.. :) :) Sleeping time now.. subah protein guru s gonna wake me at 7.. goodnight..
Good morning Diary,
Had the funniest dream ever.. i murdered someone by mistake.. and now Indian police have a gret technology for finding criminals.. using satellites.. and each hour there is an update about the progress.. That these many coutries have scanned and criminal is most likely to be present in this country.. finally they found me.. there was no court case.. Direct decision was to kill me.. and for killing as well they had a super technology.. they injected some medicine inside me thru laser and it ll take me 2 days to die..
I was so liking it that i am atleast getting to know 2 days before my death.. And they dint put me into Jail.. they put me somewhere in a open jail or smething.. i guess a military scholl.. with lots of freedom.. There, I can do anything for 2 days.. Anyways i was taking a look around.. i met an army student whoo looked like Leonardo.. n i clicked pics wid him.. :) :) N we became frnds.. Next day my father came to visit me n he took us someplace for lunch.. Some bakery of something.., dont remember much..
What a happy dream it was.. EVen m dying i cudnt feel any sadness.. Wish real death is like this that u get to know few days before and u cud fulfil all ur wishes..
Finished watching Hugo.. Lovely and inspiring..
Few great words from the muvi
Everything has a purpose, even machines.Clocks tell the time
and trains take you places.They do what they're meant to do.
Maybe that's why broken machines make me so sad.They can't do what they're meant to do. Maybe it's the same with people. If you lose your purpose, it's like you're broken.
I'd imagine the whole world was one big machine. Machines never come with any extra parts, you know. They always come with
the exact amount they need. So I figured if the entire world
was one big machine... I couldn't be an extra part. I had to be here for some reason.
Just finished watching English vinglish.. Great muvi.. Reminds me of myself 8 yrs back. When i entered the college and dint know how to talk in English. Even dint kno how to make frnds.. n how to start/shut down a computer :P.. A very scared and intovert bacha.. N here i am.. well exactly not so gud in English.. But learnt so much in these yrs.. how to survive.. Survive happily.. How to make frnds.. how to be good with the ppl who r really gud.. and well the best and worst thing i learnt is.. how to be not good with the ppl who r mean n selfish..
How beautiful this life is.. the more we learn.. more we grow up n realise we have grown up.. more we want to learn.. more and more we realise that we are still so bad at some things..
I wish a life for myself where i get to learn new things everyday.. Amen! :-)
Let me fly high,
In the beautiful blue sky,
Leaving all my worries on the earth
Let me feel light,
Give me wings
Iâ€™ll fly, in the beautiful blue sky...
In the world of stars,
Shining and shimmering
Some falling to make our wish fulfill,
But I won't let them die...
Iâ€™ll fly to the moon
Taking light from the sun
And spreading it
Making a glowing sky
Will watch it for a long time,
Without just winking my eye...
Iâ€™ll play with the clouds,
Clouds are white, flying all over the sky
Making hundred of shapes,
I desire to see the sights
And catching them in a digi cam
So that, those are forever mine...
Itâ€™s raining in the sky
I wanna fly high
Singing all the songs I like
In a world I am not feeling shy...
Want to have a look at the whole sky,
Whole universe and all the bodies flying
Wanna fly like a UFO
To all other planets having life
To meet other people and all birds flying...
Give me wings,
So that, I can fly
To explore the dark secrets,
Hidden in the beautiful blue sky..!!
Not even a single entry in my diary and 3 visits already.. N i thot i created this space as personal. Never Mind.. Back to writing after years..
Well teh credit of this Come back goes to "Akash Gautam" Teh Entertrainer.. Read his blogs and i feel motivated.. hope this motivation stays and help me in betterment of life..
As we grow up (as per dictionary) we get busy with wherever life takes us and forget about what we really wanted to do..
Even being a very optimistic and happy go lucky kinda gurl, i have Shown my life such bad falls in last few months.. basically coz of my own lack of confidence and held back attitude.. i really forgot that "Life happens to you when you are too busy to take a feel of it coz of cribbin bout stupid things"
You have to just realise that u will always be what you are, because u r best at it..
No More cribbin bout last few months .. lets start teh life with a new energy.. And With a new keyboard where i dont have to use virtual keyboard for "g,h,quuotes etc. etc."
Good Night Dear Diary :) C u soon..
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