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21 years old, Female, Karnataka,India
Had been on solo trip. Beautiful 3 days at Ghats! It's been a month for now and I'm writing it now.
Had minor exam today. Software engineering! My PHP minor exam was horrible. I wrote SQLITE code instead of PHP for 20 marks!
Today a guy (friend) asked me if I've mature. And I was like what! I mean I very well know he didn't ask me intensionally or on purpose but still it was such a awkward moment!
Apart from all this a friend of mine had called me just now and asked me to start studying on big data. Need to make some time.
Event on 22, 23, 24th. Not in mood to attend fest though! Thought of talking leave and go on solo trip! Browsed on solo travel for destinations.
Need to arrange everything now. Booking for stay, deciding places, ticket's and everything!
One of my close relative had heart operation and is in lCU from past 22 days. Couldn't see the pain they're going through!
Spent whole day in building a website! Done with Homepage, Feed back Form and Registration Page! Yet n number of modifications are to be done.
Heard that I need to meet one of the faculty! Dono why they took my name in the first place..
Had been to relatives home after a long time. Was disappointed to see 2 separate homes which once was one big bungalow!!
Came home at 9! Meet few people at community today. Had some talk with them. All good for now let's see till when!
Didn't go to college today too! Coz of project submission. Things are getting harder these days may be coz I'm soo far from *. It's been almost 2 years that they went to abroad. * Was more like a mentor to me. *Showed me ways even without saying a single word! Proudly my mentor!
Soo much of pain soo much fears right now. I really wanna go on solo travel for a week so that I can forget my fears atleast for a week!
It's been soo many days since I've been here.
Soo much has happened since a year! I don't even have time to pen down too! My Dear one expired 8 months back, for which I decided my major decision sacrificing my dream! After all I sacrificed my dream to make someone happy which I can see it everyday! (I don't like to even pen down when my dear one was on bed for 11 days at hospital). It was completely me who took every responsibility though I'm just 21 years old. Every time it was me who spoke to doctors! I still remember I was shivering when doctors asked me to sign those papers! But then.. Who else will sign if not me? Seeing me one of the doctor's hugged me( I can't mention their name coz they're the famous doctor here! And my secret crush too! Nothing can ever happen coz they're married and have children after all 19 years elder to me hahahaaaa!) Everything went vain coz my dear one expired! Life has changed a lot since then. Apart from this..
College has been hectic. Oh well forgot to mention that I got admission in reputed "University" for my further studies here. It's been 5months that I got admission! Hate the fact that timings are from 8 to 6pm. Sucks!
Recently first semester exam got over. Exams weren't good. UNIX, Computer organization were the worst paper. Within 15 days results will be out, dono what all happens.
Soo much to be done!
I spoke soo bad about * today for the first time. How can speak something like that that too about *? May be because of my temper. May be because i had too many expectations. But yes your back :) You inspired me every single time. Sorry as i spoke soo stupidly. I'm really sorry. I respect you#Salute
A friend of mine came from Mumbai last week! Had been out along with others! She has changed so much. And I was like "Why have I come to hear this shit." She was speaking so(I'm not getting an adjective :P) And I was wondering as to how come she has changed soo much within 4years in Mumbai. Was kinda bored and so came back alone leaving her by telling some urgent work.
Gotta be going! Catch you later.
2 souls 1 view just for today. Wish you best.
Had been to hospital today. My weight has gone from 3* to 3*. Had seen that Dr (the one consulted today) in SD* medical college last to last year as student. Spoke for more thn an hour wit him.
Had been to college for hall ticket. Should go again on Monday for principal's signature. Should have gone early today. My mistake.
Soo much to be done.. No time..
Rachel Monica Phoebe-Best of friendships are meant to be cherished!
(Theme From Friends)
So no one told you life was gonna be this way
Your job's a joke, you're broke, your love life's D.O.A.
It's like you're always stuck in second gear
When it hasn't been your day, your week, your month, or even your year, but
I'll be there for you
(When the rain starts to pour)
I'll be there for you
(Like I've been there before)
I'll be there for you
('Cause you're there for me too)
You're still in bed at ten and work began at eight
You've burned your breakfast, so far things are going great
Your mother warned you there'd be days like these
But she didn't tell you when the world has brought you down to your knees that
I'll be there for you..
Want more of the lyrics?? start watching the show, you'll memorize the song in no time! :D
I spoke soo rudely with '. Feeling too bad for what i did today. Whenever it comes to matter with : I'm soo tensed, soo worried. Every moment there's fear in me. Every moment there's something in me which I cant share with anyone. I'm soo trapped. Now a days i have lost : within
Im feeling like something has gone wrong with #'s health. I'm sure their not okay. Something or the other has happen to them. How do i ask them now? There's no means too! Though there's soo much distance between you and me I still care. Stay safe.
There has been a lot in my life but I'm kinda bored to write it down..
Had Microprocessor lab exam today. It was worst. Question was to subtract hex number and store result in HL pair. I subtracted C by E register instead of B by D register. It was really hopeless. I know ill fail in microprocessor lab exam. So tensed. Feeling ashamed of myself.
Microprocessor:( My attendence for this subject is below 30%. And others upto 60%. Didn't go to college since many days. Gotta be going tomo.
Had been to temple few days back(near Wghats). It was good:) A memorable one. Our plan was to be back after 3days but due to some reason we decided to travel on 2nd day at night against elders. It was about 6pm when we left there. 12hrs journey. There were very few people in bus and so everyone took a whole seat to rest.
I was alone and someone came beside me at about 10pm. Spoke a lot with him on some random science topic. The person was well educated and knowledgeable too:). Came back at morning 6am.
Fun week at college starts from tomo. Won't be going.
I need to hold my tongue first. Temper raises whenever someone speaks against me. The thing is whenever I get angry I won't be knowing what I'll be speaking. And after speaking I'm like "Oh! Why did I speak that why". Even today I spoke soo harshly with : with no fault of theirs at all. And here I am regretting at 3. I really spoke much today. Thinking of asking sorry tomo but I don't wanna open the topic again. If : opens the topic then I'll surely ask sorry.
Feeling too bad for what I did today.
Tears fall down whenever i remember you. I know that life is temporary and nothing should be taken seriously and even this that not to shed tears at any point of time. But sometimes things doesn't work out whenever its you. I have never done anything to you for which I'm suffering soo much. I miss you. You don't even know how much i sacrificed for you. How will you even come to know when you don't even understand me properly?
Why is it this that some times i think i know everything about you, your actions even before you do, and everything. On the other side i think your nothing but just a stranger to me. whenever its the matter with you tears fall down even at night 2, 3,4. I miss you soo much but why I'm i getting this from your side? Deep inside i know your one among the best person. You have done much to me and now its you whoz giving me*? Remember ill accept everything from you.
Mistakes do happen and i accepted too. But you didn't wanted things to be same as before. Instead you wanted*? Its said that sometimes fights brings people close then why is it not in my case? This is what i think constantly. I know its my mistake and you to know what you/. Did you even bother to text me once? I didn't text you anything thinking you would feel uncomfortable if i had texted you that day. But that doesn't mean i don't care. It means i cared way more than you do
I don't bring people close. But you came soo close to me that i once had thought ill never leave you at any point of time. And even this that there cant be any kinda misunderstanding between you and me ever because we know each other every well.
Today if i stand here you still matter to me!
Did'nt attend college since week! Sn gave some work and one of them called me at 12:30 to ask about it! Will be back at 6!
Watching sanjaycomedy on youtube!
I'm laughing! smiling! May be ^is the reason :)
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