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through my eyes's Diary

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21 years old, Male, Bengaluru, Karnataka

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Jan 06th, 2018 2:54 PM

everybody lives 2 lifes, one is real and the other is imaginary. other one is always a secret and inside one's head.
that imaginary life is so perfect that you imagine it all the time, before sleeping, after waking up, while in the bus, in train.
when you know she cant be yours but in imaginary life she is yours. you hold her hand in imaginary life but your heart skips a beat in real life.
she cant be yours but she is your already yours in imaginary life. some times you go so deep in your imagination that you dont want to realize the truth.
the more you think of her more beautiful she becomes to you.
and the best part is when you dream your imaginary life while sleeping, everything feels very real. then you wake up and it takes some minutes to register the reality.
its not always about a person but many things, but most affecting part of your imaginary life is always that person.
hope that gray scale filter applied imaginary was true.

Oct 3rd, 2017 8:54 PM

Ham UP originated log grandfather ko “baba” bolte hai.
Mera mere papa se koi aach link ni tha kabhi. Bachpan se baba ne hi papa ka pyaar diya hai.
Ghar mera Chhattisgarh ki raajdhani Raipur me hai. 2003 me gyan ganga Raipur ka top school hua krta tha. Baba ne mera admission us school me karaya, tab mai class 1me tha. Bachpan guzarta chala gaya. Class 10th yani ki 2012-13 me mai typical teenager ki tarah tha, ghar walo se naffrat hone lagi thi. Mai baba ki bhi bahot disrespect krta tha, lkin baba ne kabhi kuch nahi bola. 11th-12th me mujhe ghar se naffrat hone lagi thi. Mai bas yahi sochta tha ki Raipur se nikalna hai bas. Mera 12th me bahot kharab result aaya tha, tab saare ghr wale saare relatives bas mujhe data rahe the, bas ek insaan tha jo mujhse bht pyaar se baat krra tha, mere baba. Mere result k baad mai bht roya, mujhe rota dekh baba bhi roye. Mai us din baba ko pehli baar rote dekha, unhe rote dekh mai andar se mar sa gya.
College admissions k time koi mujhe bahar bhejne ko ready nahi tha coz m an average student. Baba ne mujhse pucha kaha padhna hai tumko, mai bola baba Nagpur ya Bangalore jane ka man hai. Baba ne mera admission Bangalore k ek reputed college me kara dia management quota se. jab mai pehli baar ghr chodh raha tha mai bht khush tha. 1 saal baad mujhe ghr ki yaad aani shuru hui. Wo sari galtian, wo disrespect jo maine ki, wo sab aaj chubhti hai. Saal me bas 2 bar ghr jana ho pata hai. Ghr me sabse zada khush bhi baba hote hai mujhe dekh k. mai aur baba ek jaise hai. Bahar se ekdam strong islie kabhi ek dusre k samne kabhi dikhate ni emotions. Lekin mujhe pata hai wo mujhe yaad krke rote honge Raipur me.
Ab ghr aur ghr walo ka pyaar kabhi naseeb nhi hoga. Ek bar nikal gae ab kaha wapas jaenge. Holidays me jitti baar Raipur se wapas aata hu takeoff me aankhen nam ho hi jaati hai.
Aaj jitti aachi life hai asih wali wo nahi hoti agar baba ni hote to. Ye sab samjhne k lie jab tab umar aai tab tak bht der ho gai. Ab bas phone me baat hoti hai aur saal me 2 baar mil lete hai.
I love you baba.

Jul 14th, 2017 10:06 PM

I am in doubt,
Whether or not you ;
Have been hearing me out.
I am in worry,
My worst mistake;
Letting you go.
and I am sorry;
I am hurt so bad.
I made you so sad;
I am depressed,
I love the way;
You moved my stress.
I am alone,
Think of you as my all;
Has been long gone.
I think of you,
Every now and then;
I wonder we will meet when.
I know, you care,
Seeing you happy;
Is what I fare.
I know, you love,
Cause baby
You bring me peace as a white Dove.
I know, there’s Chaos in you,
There’s nothing I wouldn’t do
All you need, is ask for it
And all world’s gonna be yours.
I know, it’s your birthday
It’s special for you,
Yet, I don’t have anything special to say.
I know, I am blank
Blank as a vacuum,
You fill it with your universe.
I could go on
But, I would run out of words
And they won’t be rhyming in verse
It sounds perfect, so let’s not make it worse.

Jul 14th, 2017 10:02 PM

I was standing in the pouring rain,
holding her hand;
down by the 6th lane.
looking at her gloomy eyes,
washing my pride and pain;
no, i didn’t want that night to end.

she looked at me with eyes so bright
sorry, I couldn’t pretend that everything’s alright.
i held her hand, put me around her.
we were getting comfy ,
to the heat of our body.
while i listen to her scold,
being drenched and soaked in cold.
I was standing in the pouring rain,
holding her hand;
down by the 6th lane.
i could feel the pain,
the rush of blood through her veins,
feeling those feelings ;
were driving me Insane.

I hugged her so tight,
held her closer to me,
being afraid that,
it might be another dream,
on another night.
Nothing felt so perfect,
and everything was alright.

I was standing in the pouring rain
holding her hand;
down by the 6th lane.
the rain stopped and cleared the sky;
while i kissed her ,
under the silver lining of the moonbeam.
spent the rest of the time,
up and gazing her beauty;
under the million star stream

Apr 21th, 2017 8:24 PM

what the fuck
i dont want you to come bangalore
chennai me hi training kr na yr.
itna bada desh hai kahi aur ja
i know i am rude but i have some plans which will get spoiled if you come
dayavittu nann city bardeda
innu city alli training madi

Jan 29th, 2017 04:40 AM

dear *******,

i am a very emotional guy, i never show emotions but it doesn't mean that i like to play with feelings.
i hardly get close to someone, but when i do i pour my soul out for em.
people emotionally attached to me mean a lot to me. i flirt but it doesn't mean i wanna make out.
when i first met u, i was kinda attracted to you, but i definitely didn't want this stage.
its just 3rd day that we know each other, and see what are we doing.
it may be ok for you but not ok for me, i will get emotionally unbalanced. i can handle anything very easily but not emotions.
i am in a long distance relationship which i don't want to be ruined.
sex is not a plug and play game for me. don't take advantage of my stress.
i don't want to end up getting emotionally attached to you.
don't play please, i am a very weak hearted guy.

Dec 05th, 2016 7:30 PM

tamil nadu dalli yen nadita ide :|
har chiz me naya drama
waha ki cm serious hai to networks suspend kr die poore state ka. ye kya logic hua be. kisi ka accident ho jaaye to call bhi ni kr skta ghr me. poore jagah police, kisi ko bahar jaane nahi de rahe. aur sala jo dusre state ka waha phasa hua hai wo bhi wapas nahi aa pa raha. y to create nuisance for every single issue.
thoda develope ho jao. baju me karnataka hai thoda dimag le lo. :P
abhi kuch din pehle cyclone aaya tha north tn me, phr se sab ujad gya?
Karnataka government is so smart, they suspended bus services to tn.
last time jala die the ye log hamari pyaari pyaari KSRTC buses ko. jao ham bus bhejenge hi nahi kuch time tak :D
waha natak hota rhta kyuki karma is a bitch. kuch mahino pehle hamse panga lie the na. ab bhugto :P
Karnataka indha jhagda madbeda :8

Nov 24th, 2016 11:22 PM

it's been 5 years 1 month 6 days since she is not my life.
zindagi bahut aage badh chuki hai. magar yaad to aaj bhi wo aati hai. uske naam k aansu aaj bhi aankhon se baha krte hai.
aisa bahut baar hua hai kismat hame ek dusre k samne laake khada kr deti hai.
abhi tak ki meri zindagi ka sabse haseen pal tha jab wo meri hua krti thi.
kash waqt ko dubara palat skta mai.

Oct 16th, 2016 00:52 AM

today at 10 pm in chennai something happened with one of my female friend which increased my hatred towards tamil nadu.
she and her boyfriend were walking and two tamilians suddenly came and started hitting them. -_- her boyfriend is strong so he rescued her and himself.
i dont know what they wanted to do. she is scared as hell.
i have heard many stories like this and even more than this about chennai.
this is the reason i dont like any other city other than bangalore.
yaha raat me kitte bhi bhar girls bahar ghum le majal hai jo koi haath laga de.
take care girls. india is bull shit country
come settle in bangalore, people here will treat you as your daughter/sister

Oct 13th, 2016 9:51 PM

logo se pyaar karo ya naffrat
ek din to mar hi jana hai
kaam acha karo ya bura
ek din to mar hi jana hai
paise kamao ya nahi
ek din to mar hi jana hai
zindagi me kuch haasil karo ya nahi
ek din to mar hi jana hai
life se kuch expect karo ya nahi
ek din to mar hi jana hai
life aachi banao ya nahi
ek din to mar hi jana hai

Aug 22th, 2016 10:30 PM

Oh yes i am awake again
Again in between the night
My eyes won’t shut
And are open out wide
This hour of the day
Feelings won’t hide
Oh yes i am awake again
Again in the sleep
No more dreams for me
nightmares- it seems
This hour of the night
There is no pride.Oh yes i am awake again
Again in this spots of street lights
Like a shadow following
The blurred lines
In This hour of today
May my light be my guide.

Aug 21th, 2016 01:47 AM

Will you keep the music playing?
I dont wanna loose you.
Will you just shut up and ;
Hear to what i am saying?
So can we keep this moment
And seal it within our hearts.
Things have never been the same before
Nor will they be the same again
But today you make me feel alive
Alive again,
I have learned to love again
Erase my hate, i was so consumed in
So baby will you stay like this forever
And promise me to smile
When you see my name again
And remember time we laughed
Hugged and kissed
To every breath we took together
And to every heartbeat we missed
We can skip all details
But the smile on your face
Will never be erased nor will it fade
With every passing day
I will love you more and more each day.
So baby will you still love me when
When i am gone, gone in the wind
Erased my scent, my trails
Will you still search for me
Like you did just before today.
So baby when you find me
that someday, i will uphold my promise
I will be there, there for you
Care for you and you dont
Dont wanna have to cry anymore
And i will , i promise i will watch you
Watch you from the shadows
I promise i will pick you up
When you stumble and fall
And push you further up
Up to the skies, where i believe
Heaven exists , cause baby
You are an angel

Aug 20th, 2016 01:23 AM

What hurts?
Is when you aren't feeling well.
Still waiting for the person,
Hoping they would ring the door bell.
What hurts?
Is when you find something so perfect,
And somewhere you found ;
Never was worth it.
What hurts?
Is when you are waiting for a text,
While you are being ignored
Even if it was your best.
What hurts?
Is when you cry yourself to sleep,
The next morning
And you cut yourself so deep.
What hurts?
Is when your day starts alright
Struggling through the day
it turns to a wreck by midnight.
What hurts?
Is when you think of someone all day,
And realising that, they pushed you away.
What hurts?
Is when you are soaking your blood in wine.
Hoping that one day it would all turn out fine.
What hurts?
Is when you think it's a perfect life,
And the very next moment you search for knife.
What hurts?
Is when you love someone,
Even when not in sight.
When they left you in the dark
On the street by the lamplight.

Aug 14th, 2016 02:05 AM

it was a great time being an android user. since year 2012 i was using android. i have used eclairs, ginger bread, jellybean, kitkat, lolipop, masrshmallow. in between i used windows phone for a while, that was a shit time it cant be called an operating system. i have seen android since its childhood :p from android E to android M, many many development had been done in the os.
but now :D i have entered the whole new world. now i am ios user. i am using iphone. ios is damn sexy. not a single lag, damn sexy interface, very very fast.
but i has some restrictions, in this case i like android. android is very easy to use, it has no restrictions. but i have all time access to my laptop so its not very difficult transferring data to my phone oh sorry *iphone :p
i have started using ios in 2016 so i am using ios 9 i dont know how were the earlier versions.
now after using ios i am damn sure i am never gonna buy an android phone
and i am soon gonna throw my windows laptop away and buy a macbook.
windows sucks.

Aug 10th, 2016 11:58 PM

My world lies
Between the spark
In her eyes
She said ," dont be afraid of the dark"
Cured my life of the love and bliss
But never crossed my mind
She would do this,
Cursed my love for lust
And seek between her legs.!!


What was she thinking
That she would lay eggs!
Well thats just a metaphorical irony
Bitch ," you are not horny !"
Pass me one when you lay eggs
To make sure that it doesnt hatch
I will play the game of catch catch
Or rather play a match
Or hit it with a bat
Or make an omlet and feed it to a cat

I bet you will ever elope,
Well thats the best part dont lose hope
Or rather go fuck an antilope
Now that I dont give a fuck
You are overrated, you suck !
Chose the profession of a whore
You are waste of time , a bore.
This comes from the bottom of my heart
Or rather the core!
Inform me when you fucked four
I would come up and give the score.

They say virginity is purity
Well some people define it as
Lack of oppurtunity
Well human imagination is one of a kind
Sitting here and imaging how you would fuck
Owh , thats great , sperm all over your face
You brought your parents grace.


Now if you blame me for doing this
Yes I did this, and I m not guilty
This is what you have been blaming me for
Now do anything ,

(not dedicated to any one)

Aug 06th, 2016 01:54 AM

4 saal 9 mahine 6 din ho gae
mujhe phir bhi teri yaad aa hi jati hai
aankhon me tere naam ke aansu aa hi jate hai



Jul 20th, 2016 5:50 PM

BAARISH. _|_
sabse ghatiya mausam. poore time pachar pichir.
jab kuch kaam hota hai ye saali barish ho jati hai. ab bacche bolenge barish to bht aachi hti hai abe jab pocket me 2 phone aur purse hoga tab smjh aaega. ghar me baithe rhne se barish aachi hi lagti hai. jab bahar jao aur achanak se barsish ho to smjh aaaega.
mai bahar niklta hu aadha raste me barish ho jati hai jab wapas ghr phchta hu to band ho jati hai. rand ki aulad.
gali to bht dene wala tha pr kisi ne mood shant kr dia.

Jul 07th, 2016 8:36 PM

IRRITATED

i love my homies but duur se. jab hostel me hota hu tab thik hai. ye sath me rhna bada dard hai. poore time kich kich, har chiz me tokna sikhana. aaj bhi gadi chalana sikhate hai man i am driving since 5 years. laptop use kro usme me dard abe java programer hu slate aur chalk leke thodi baithunga. i dont know why old people dosent accept our generation. why they want us to be like 1960's.
its not that i dont like them, i love them alot, i can even risk my lif for them. its just that i like to be on my own. mujhe kisi ki advice ya gyan ki zarurat nahi hai.

now a days my friends have learnt new shit. they say i am inhuman. : why?
because my thinking is not like other teenagers.
becuase i dont like trips with friends.
because i spend free time with my laptop instead of friends.
because i dont play computer games.
because i dont like adventures.
because i dont watch movies much.
because i always be in formals.
because i dont like parties.
becuase i dont stare random girls (north activity)
because i dont drink. (i am smoker :P)
so what man.. its my way of living. i dont like these activities. i am not bored i have my own ways to enjoy. what i beileve is i am not inhuman i am in that 22% of engineers who are employable. i dont want to be in those who do shitty things in college life and after placement says "why with me" :P my heart is a house full of dreams.

i will do things which my non-inhuman friends do pr apne paise se. mai bhi badi se diesel car me ghumunga pr apni car me baap ki ni. mai bhi paise udaunga pr apne kamae hue baap ke ni. mai bhi udunga pr apni position pe baap ki ni.

i may sound weird and rude but i its the way i am.

Jul 07th, 2016 00:13 AM

fuck -_____________-
waiting for holidays to end
chattisgarh me ghar kyu hai mera... sab aand hai yaha. nothing is perfect here.. sala admi ko kaam hai aur net dhang se ni chalta. online payment me jitni der me page khulta hai utni der pe otp expire ho jata hai. ek bhi mobile operator aache se service nahi deta. barish hoti hai to road gayab ho jati hai. #### jaisi to road banate hai. raipur rajdhani hai cg ki aur yei aisi city hai. holidays nikalna mushkil ho jata hai yaha.
MISSING MY COLLEGE

May 16th, 2016 02:18 AM

yo!
i have learnt how to read and write kannada... now i am learning tamil..right now i am learning to read and write tamil script...
kannada was bit easy for me since i am in karnataka so i have a kannada environment. but tamil is also easy i can learn it.
some will think i am crazy. but i want to learn.. i have interest.
and also these two languages gonna help me in future coz i ll live in south only..

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