"Whenever I had thought!".

I thought
of you, when I first saw you.
I thought
of you as someone else when you weren't him.
I thought
of you, when I was filled with pride.
I thought
of you, as someone who cannot be for me.
I thought
of you, when you weren't there.
I thought
of you, when you were there, somewhere.
I thought
of you, when I despised you.
I thought
of you, when I cried for you.
I thought
of you, when I looked at the sky and,
realised,
Whenever I had thought, I had always thought about you.