Dear one,
I am beholden, eminently overjoyed,I love this feeling. Thank-you.
The night is tenebrous with spates of smoky clouds filling over the sky. I am here in Gaziabaad , at my cousin's place, will be sleeping after I finish scribing my emotions. The result was out the day I reached Delhi. And then what follows is a manifesto. I am already too edgy about my future, about myself and about every thing else. Publicizing this has made me even more petrified. I need to make it up. It was my dream.
The night of May 0#, 2016. The night of my official birthday. I am really heavy eyed.
Date May 9, 2016.
Again Somnolence. Sitting here heavy eyed at my regular spot besides the pond is my personal tranquilizer. But the disparity between then and now is vast. When now I'm swamped by the cluster of biting mosquitoes, that time was weird . Escaping the circumstances I used to wander around in the adjoining areas.
Date : May 11, 2016.
It's Petrichor night. The cab is nearly flying on the black glittering highway. The fragrance , the cool and the moist pacifies me. Sitting on the back seat I see a curvy road, it looks magical. The parallel edges are planted with majestic trees who flaunt their silver leaves as a result of the fluorescence . Occasionally the whole passage is lighted by sudden intimidating lightning. The rain, in particular the first one of a season infuses me with sanguiness . I guess it holds true for everyone. As the cab moves away I look at the curved road. Spectacular it seemed as if it can lead you to heaven, away from all the pains of life. Further I moved it seemed straight and then straighter. There view stroked me with a philosophy, two indeed. First, When you encounter upon a distorted path seclude yourself form it the away you move the straighter it will seem. Second, you may presume a direction as easy and straightforward but getting actually into it may reveal the flaws it has got.
Date : 12 may, 2016.
I don't know how to thank.. I can feel right now releasing all the bad stuff. I am very grateful. I get this wierd feeling to pray.
Date : 13 may, 2016.
I'm sitting in the lawn in front of the CCD , the merriment of the couple on the right of me is cool. Ohh, wait that's not a couple, the thing which I was considering to be the girl's bag was actually a big hip of another girl. It's pouring down again. I've rushed away into the cafeteria there are people sitting away and near me. I see a couple, I guess certainly a couple. The girl is a Bollywood Actress look a like and the boy is......... Who cares, yes but I like him a lot. I don't love him. It's wierd . I thought that he liked me but many times I have been assured that let alone the likeness, may be he avoides me. It is the kind of experience that I have encountered first in my life. May be he's sitting facing me to show me off that he now has a girlfriend. Let him go, I don't want him to have a slight glimpse that it hurts me a little. I think they are gone. Let him go. Just leave him. Though I'm inside the rainy smell is here again . It's good that the world is changing. Let it change for good. The after affects of that feeling after seeing him with some girl is still lingering on me. The girl is fair, though I don't like the kind of face she has. I hope it has stopped raining. I'm going outside.
