Do I Love U..??

I don't understand why i am in such a dilemma. Do I Love U..?? or No..!! ??. I still remember the moment i met u. We introduced our self so formally , everything was etiquette but then we talked n talked.How can i forget every thought we shared..?? within few hours we become close to each other. Those two days we spent together amidst such a wonderful surrounding are those moments i can never forget in my life.
we have always been in contact since then..even though the distance between us practically measures 782 km i have never felt it..!! talking to u has become a routine . I feel so restless without talking to u even for a day . i don't understand what makes me feel so happy reading every text u send i have never experienced such a joy in reading a text which conveys nothing literally...u devastate me wen ever u speak about your ex. i understand Ur previous relationship has hurt u and u don't love me at all but this fight of forgetting u and making my mind believe that u can never be mine is the hardest one i have ever fought.
Ever since my childhood i am very determined about what ever i do..but every time i decide not to talk to u and keep u out of mind i fail..!! they say don't love anyone more than Ur self respect but for me this isn't working in Ur case.i am so madly in love with u that i sometimes hate my own self..i purposely asked u not to message me so that i could forget u but i am missing u like hell. i agree u can never be mine but whats my fault why i am insane ..?? why is it that i am not able to make up mu mind not to love u..?? i wish i would have never met u in my life never fallen in love with u why d hell there is no answer for why n how this happened to me..??
u are the one i probably shouldn't be in love with but i am damn helpless..i can feel u everywhere, every moment i wonder can u ever love me d way i love u..?? see again i started the other way instead of forgetting u.i don't know what can heal the affliction i am experiencing. what can make me the way i was..what can make me love myself ..and the question persists is this love..?? do i love u..???....