When tears roll down your face
The vision gets blur
and you lose your voice
But,
You keep holding your grace
Fighting your tears
You wish to disappear
while you are still in the crowd
And keep holding your grace
Because,
You just cannot give away
Those tears aren't for display
You need no sympathies
from the worldly harmonies
yet you feel nothing, but the greif
that's eating you
It has blinded you to the colors
to the love, to the world, to the show evergoing
You feel retired
and you cann't play it again
it's not the pain,
but the fear of losing again
that's holding you back
that's blocked your heart
your blood is frozen
and you act strong
you say it's the shallowness
while you tell lies
that you don't care, and you don't feel
who knows
in the depth of your hollowness
are the deepest desires
and the darkest of secrets
that are clotted, and won't melt easy
your laughter, and your smile?
tell them it's natural, it's gifted
and it was the only survival
while you walked alone the roughest mile
pour it all out?
you wish, and they wish
tell them it ain't simple
and it ain't happening
afterall, it's mere a story
it may become a gossip
bringing you deceiving stares
it's not the anger,
nor a fire for revenge,
it ain't physical either,
still you feel it in your bones,
in your muscles, and in your veins
it's the emptiness
the feeling of feeling nothing
even when you are lost
it keeps haunting
you are now in the race
not knowing what to win and what to lose
you lost the purpose, you lost the sentiment
to yourself, you are new meaningless
you feel pity for your poor soul
while you are proud in the masses
because,
it's your story, and yours alone
when the drama is over
your senses are restored
to keep you going for another event
while it all rests in there
yes, in the shallowness of your heart
it repeats over and over
and it's the new pattern
that's terrifying?
tell them to jump in if they're daring
it has to be earned, and it isn't easy
there's so much to tell, and so much to feel
but all in vain,
you cannot be explored again,
you just cannot be.
