I decided to move away finally from this world, a heinous place to live in..i thought I was unfortunate because I became victim of a gang rape, an incident which told me that human are more monstrous than monsters..i still wanted to live I was fighting with all my spirits but then I realized I was wrong that I thought myself only a rape victim..but from that I became a political victim, nobody tried to find out what I went through, it became a matter of political gain from my pain...they again raped me politically this time..i became an object for them to show how committed they are towards society through only speeches, plans and work in progress status combined with fake promises but no concrete actions were taken.
Then I was molested by some media channels again day and night, who enchased my plight for bringing TRP’s to them. Big names sat and discussed what the reason is, what should be done but nobody thought of me..what wrong I did to deserve this??Why all these inputs, insights, plans, methods never came before. Why this topic was not discussed in prime time earlier? why actions were not taken earlier??…why they were all waiting for someone like me to go through such traumatic incident which shatters dignity of a soul completely???
This was not all then I was again raped by society….ironically without my name I became a household name..some make mockery of girls like me living alone in a metro city and held us responsible for inviting trouble like this…some parents shunned their daughters from going out after 7 pm..They have no right to go out because they are girls and city is not safe…what have I done to be a reason for barring girl’s freedom….Why I became a symbol of fear highlighting that being girl is unfortunate, unsafe??? You are free to roam and feel safe only if you are a guy…what wrong have I done..i was not roaming at 2 pm in the night alone, i was not drunk, I was not alone ,I was properly dressed…I just went out to enjoy my life that too at 8 pm in night in a busy so called respected area..i just wanted to be back to home on time was that also a mistake?????
I could not take it more ...I regret being born as a girl in this world, I regret my fight to survive…I am moving away from all these rapists who raped me again and again…I am going to the other part of this world which I feel will be worth going..at least there I will find soul who are pious ..i have a belief that even in hell life will be better than this world for me..no body answered my questions, understood my plight..this world is not worth living or fighting for…so I am going to celebrate my new year with my new birth in the form of a pious soul..i am actually going to rest in peace now…I bid my last good bye to you all and wish myself….R.I.P
