Expectations hurt!!! Always believed in it and practiced it! but, had never thought that I could be hurt too despite of all my positivity! despite of All of my control! Despite of all my understandings!!
Expect low, you will be happier! All the words like these, sentences like this, and all the quotations are nothing in real! but just the fragments of someone's memoirs, feelings and experiences in different time in a different way! Not necessarily they fit for you, even if you think you are in the same situation! You need not to believe everything you read! You need not to push yourself hard to accept those words! because you are just YOU! None other! No one else was like you, no one else like you will come ever again! So, live your life! blaze your trail! don't try to fix into others', don't need to feel the writers' feelings, don't need to force yourself to agree with his words! for his words defined him! not you! He had done his work! he had observed, felt, thought, improved and moved on! and now totally gone! You can never find a way to reach him! and thus there is no meaning in following his words without knowing him! without understanding him completely because You have to find your own-self! To know your own self! No-one can understand you better than you because no-one can know you completely!No-one can feel you sufferings, no-one can hear the inner voice of you! Because no-one else is at the place of you! You were meant to be here and so here are you! and it is your work to figure out the issues you have!! In your own way! If you sit and start looking for the similar stories, then believe me! You will find none! You may find some patches matching to you but they wont work unless they fix into your story! Two movies can have the same scenes but they cannot be replaced! because they just don't fix, don't explain the original one does!!
IF you talk about the people, You have seen their behaviour, they treated you according to what they know about you and upto the level they understand you! It is you who need to have a better understanding of yourself, not they! Once you know what you are, what you want and what you need, everything will be crystal clear to you! You won't give yourself a blow when you read something opposite to what you do! You won't feel bad of your actions even if you find them highly opposed by someone somewhere! Because you and only you know the reasons of Being you!!!
Yes, I have walked a long way alone till I reach at a point of a meeting worth mentioning_ it was where I found my soul holding a new sign board,wiht just a painful smile this time. I tried to read it, she moved away, I moved further, she moved away again, I made my third try, still could not reach her!! Yes! I failed many times! Until now I only knew she was in agony, I did not know why! I had not time then, I gave up and came back. but, I was feeling like a looser who was coming back from the war just because he had other works to do, the works which kept his eyes closed to that sign board! This time he had seen the sign board, but not the words!
Awakening up like always, he got busy in his routine and put that memory of sojourn in cold storage! But all the time, the smile kept him disturbing! He knew he has to g back sometime to know that! To know something which he knew he feels but has failed to realize!
So, it was not happened until he felt the pain again... He was determined this time to come back with an answer... So, here the eyes glimmered with wet when he realized _ Expectations don't hurt that much, but we get hurt when we try to control them because we know we cannot have them!! But, without expectations we cannot even know the real meaning and feeling of happiness!!
I am not saying to disagree with others. I am not saying to never accept guilty. I am not saying to expect, neither I am saying to not to expect!
What I am saying is to Explore yourself! Don't become a bigot! You are blessed with your own senses to feel, observe and conceive! You may find your truths similar to others, but in your own way, satisfying you the best!!!
