Its always hard to start something new, I thought a lot about writing in here today finally made up my mind. Here I am with my first post & also in hope that it will be liked (fingers crossed).
Its hard to move on in life. Tough to give away something which you so badly want it to be yours. But once you come in the situation where you got to make a choice, the one that's very painful. Its the situation you never thought you would be in, given that you made your choices in life so perfectly. But now you are proven wrong. All your dreams are crushed under the foot of time. No wonder if you feel, "why the hell me? ", "Why my life has to be so miserable?" , "Why can't I get what I want? When everyone around me gets their way so easily?" and silently you feel tears rolling out of your eyes along with it you entering into depression. All you can see is despair. Memories of past swimming around you no matter where ever you go. Every moment you are thinking of some way or the other of working it out. You are holding the final thread of your relation so tight never giving the thought on how fragile it has become. Because all you want is things to come back to normalcy. Its the only option you have. The mere thought of leaving someone so beloved is like jumping off the cliff. Every moment you feel like dying or like nearing to death.Then you beg,plead, compromise, threaten,fight,isolate,fast. No matter what you do you are being given the same sign on and on.."just let go".
This is not my life now, that doesn't mean I haven't been through this, nor does it mean what you are thinking right now. When I say relation it can be in any form the human race has created. No matter what relation you consider the pain of parting is always the worst. I experience this a lot of time given the person I am. But today what makes me speak out this feeling of loss is because of one of my friend. Its her first time. A friend is a integral part of everyone life. You don't have a friend then you can't be alive. They are breathe. You live because they are living. They are gifts presented to you by yourself. Once you go wrong in choosing a right person as your friend your world will be in turmoil. Friends are next to your better half. You confide everything in them without even thinking whether its right or wrong. And that's were my dear friend made a blunder. She is innocent and she happen to cross-bye a heartless person. Did everything a friend would do, for him and he never returned the same gesture. He made mistake she forgave, he committed blunder she forgave, he ignored her she forgave, he betrayed she forgave and forgave. Blind she was, thought it was not his intention but cried ever time in silence. He didn't even have idea about the hurt he was inflicting upon her. All he thought he was right. A event took place which clearly portrayed his true color. Now she couldn't take it anymore. Tried she was holding on to the final thread of her relation. Broke away all walls of innocence and spat everything on his face which she was holding on from long time.
You and I very well know its not easy. Sometimes even we have done it too. And later we have seen our self in mirror with the side effects. But life gives you no option you got to act and protect yourself. There is no point in getting yourself hurt every time. Just say it and get over with it.And Be prepared for second chance whether its worth it or not.
*My grammar is not that good. I apologize for the mistakes made. My humble request is that, please point out my mistakes. Help me improve. :)
