A fatherless daughter
A child less cared for
I didn't know love
And then you came,
You gave me love, more than anybody could
You stood by me when nobody was
In sadness and happiness,
You were all that I had
You were the one I always looked for
You were the one I opened up to
You became my only reason and my only attraction
I gave myself away to you, all of it
But, suddenly you flew away
Leaving me into bits and pieces
Yes I had become stubborn, rigid and may be selfish
But did you ever look for the reason?
May be you got sick of me
May be I was just a maniac to you
May be I was just a temporary attraction
May be I am still a fool
I tried hard to let go of the thought of you
Trust me I failed every time
You don't want me, that is okay
May be this is how the life was supposed to be
I had never imagined I would loose you
You know what hurts more?
Knowing that you exist but not with me
Blocking is just a failed escape mechanism
I just can't die again and again
Because you never come to stay
And I fall apart every time you leave
Yes, I am living my nightmare
I am afraid I will grow old thinking of you
I am afraid to feel the emptiness till the last moments
I am afraid of feeling the loss of you for lifetime
I am afraid you will forget me
I am afraid you will become some else's
I am afraid we will become mere a memory
That is the only reason I kept knocking your door
But, I left without complain
I know you don't want me
And that is okay
I will love you anyways
