You never said I'm leaving
You never said goodbye
You were gone before I knew it
And only god knows why........
Its been around 10 months but frankly, I still haven't been able to come to terms with your death. I still feel cheated and let down by god. I have tried telling myself that you are with me, my papa is with me in spirit and is watching over me, but trust me papa its just not enough. I want you here, right beside me, in all my moments.
I wish I could be a little girl again who had to just shed a tear and papa's arms would be around to comfort her. when you were here LIFE used to be so UNCOMPLICATED. You know what when you were here, there was a sense of security that no matter what, he would always be there to pick me up when I fall. It did I fell but you were not here. I was all alone left with your memories and the pain. I had to figure that all out myself.
I had to learn a lot of things the hard way. I know that had you been alive, you wouldn’t have allowed that to happen to your little girl. I have missed you when a loved one has hurt me and I have cried copious tears into my pillow all night and wondered whether things would’ve been different had you been here. But you just wasn’t there to help me over the rough, ragged stones of growing up. I miss you dad, and I miss you so badly because it broke my heart to lose you.