You never said I'm leaving
You never said goodbye
You were gone before I knew it
And only god knows why........
Its been around 10 months but frankly, I still haven't been able to come to terms with your death. I still feel cheated and let down by god. I have tried telling myself that you are with me, my papa is with me in spirit and is watching over me, but trust me papa its just not enough. I want you here, right beside me, in all my moments.
I wish I could be a little girl again who had to just shed a tear and papa's arms would be around to comfort her. when you were here LIFE used to be so UNCOMPLICATED. You know what when you were here, there was a sense of security that no matter what, he would always be there to pick me up when I fall. It did I fell but you were not here. I was all alone left with your memories and the pain. I had to figure that all out myself.
I had to learn a lot of things the hard way. I know that had you been alive, you wouldnâ€™t have allowed that to happen to your little girl. I have missed you when a loved one has hurt me and I have cried copious tears into my pillow all night and wondered whether things wouldâ€™ve been different had you been here. But you just wasnâ€™t there to help me over the rough, ragged stones of growing up. I miss you dad, and I miss you so badly because it broke my heart to lose you.