And now I've decided to stop.Finally!After giving so much shit to all this shit till so long...A relationship,well,I am doubtful whether i shud call it one or not.This man who keeps coming and walking out of my life whenever he wishes....just cuz he knows I'll always be there for him...cuz stupidly enough I love him.... But after 3 years,a mature me orders my heart to stop.To stop replying him when he texts because if he cant care enough to reply to my infinite number of calls and messages,if he cant even say a few words to my nostalgic text,because if he plans to meet all the time only according to his own convenience and comfort zone,when and where,then its not worth it...Sure,he might be inexpressive and all..but when it is there,the feelings,the emotions,the love,then you know it...anyhow somehow,sometime....That care,concern will make way even through that hard shell,but it just doesnt!ever!
We girls might act weird and confused and difficult,but the truth is its all because we care so much.And i believe its all because of my overforgiving self that i have suffered so much emotional pain in this so-called relationship....Ek rishta jisme hamesha se sirf main thi,main hi uss pyar ko khojne aur banane mein lagi thi jo shayad kabhi tha hi nahi....
Lesson learnt the hard way.Dont lose yourself trying to love someone.I dont need someone in my life who only brings question marks along.A relationship,I believe should only be there when two people are happy together and are the reason for each other's happiness...nothing else...and if his existence makes me frown rather than smile,then i guess I'm better off...Maybe its his inexpressive self,nothing more,maybe he loves me and just not able to show(as he quotes it),but then i cannot live my whole life trying to figure out his silences...that would be a big injustice to myself...and I would rather spend my whole life missing him,than myself...
Beep!Its him...yes,he's texted,to make a plan...Our previous one didnt work cuz he asked me to change the timings a night before,something came up at work,on an off day!Obviously I cancelled the whole goddamn thing though I was free...Its about not letting someone take me for granted..cuz as they say,You teach people to treat you and I am not letting myself to be treated as trash.SO?So i let him remain bugged with the blue tick(of having read the message) and not replying.

One more text-"You can atleast say no if you dont wanna come".
Read.

Beep!
"Is everything fine?"
"Why arent you replying?"
No dude,am not going to...EVER!Just giving you a dose of your own medicine.Ouch!

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