Standing in the middle of the field.., under the glare of this old sun…, I’ve got my past tale of living, back once more…like a flashback or something that I don’t know how to express….!
However it’s more of people and incidents and much more of emotions of wide range which put me to wide laughs now…! Those tears I shed for 50-50 biscuits, my demand for rupee notes and hesitation for coins….ah then the tears that shed for tough Maths exam and the way I cursed my teachers for whole life at the tough papers….! Seem so much in need to return back..to those childhood days of hiding tonic bottles from mom’s eyes and playing 24X7 naughtiness…!
And now….Ah…! they call it teenage, time for new emotions which I fail to recognize now. When eyes change thoughts and needs..!And that restlessness when all in my class form gangs and I’m excluded just because of some unknown reason…, state of loneliness all time. It’s hard to reverse thoughts and fill up empty spaces now. When, walking back from school all others deep in wide smiles and exchange of secrets.., I don’t know why I haven’t met with any such secrets….hmmm…let it go…all those are past and now the time of exams and choose my own way myself…!
More I find time to look back but never manage to think of next as it kills my naked self and puts another set of memory by the time….however even this piece of writing is born from frustration and loneliness that I create myself….now.., got to understand I myself was the creator of that loneliness and frustration…but is it late now…………..?????
