I am not satisfied. What I have is not enough. Yes! I crave for more. I don't know what but I crave for more.
I'm in a dark, dangerous forest.
Forest of pleasure,
Forest of pain.
Forest of leisure,
Forest of vain.
You see the truth, but hidden are the lies.
You see the smile, but deep inside it hides.
I'm in a dark murky forest whose woods are painted of gold but you touch them and you die. All is deceit, all is a trap.
Am I the same person, the person who loved you so much? Who wanted nothing more than your love. You were harsh, you were rude. Still I found thousand ways to love you. Never asking, never demanding. Promised to love you unconditionally. Finally a road was constructed, connecting our hearts. We started on the same footing, it all seemed happy and bliss.
Then came Pandora with her box and filled me with selfishness. I wanted more. I reasoned, argued, fought and provoked you. I was mad at you for reasons uncertain, I cried for hours for no fault of yours. Soon sadness replaced happiness. You explained, I refused to listen. So you too gave up, and it became our daily routine. I searched for your faults instead of your love. My greed increased, I felt more devastated, more unsatisfied, nothing you did pleased me.
Now that I have come so far, I want to return, to that peaceful embrace of your arms. But I can't, I want to run, I want to hide. But the demon is gnawing at me, destroying me and I never saw that I am destroying you too. My mind wants rest, my heart needs peace. Alas! I find none. This forest is too dangerous. I am afraid , I am lost. I want to return back but I find no way. My heart is racing. I fear I'll lose you, but my selfish mind keeps me from going back to you. My mind wants to shout at you, show you your faults, But then my heart realizes...
THE FAULT LIES IN ME...
